As for me, Father, I have nothing to say, because the darkness is so dark, the pain is so painful. Sometimes the pain grips me so tightly that I hear my voice cry out: my God, help me! When I teach the sisters how to cling closely to Jesus, when I teach them to love Him with a deep, devoted, personal love, I long to be able to do that too. I see the sisters right in front of me loving God, coming so close to Him, daily becoming so much like Him – and I, Father, am simply "alone," empty, excluded, simply unwanted. And yet in all the sincerity of my heart, I am happy when I see that He is loved…
(Mother Teresa, letter to Father Neuner, October 16, 1961)
