Father! Confidant of my heart and soul!
I long to remain in a close, fervent, and deep connection with God, even when I am in dryness, bitterness, and without feeling. I would like to perform amazing wonders in the world! I would like to spend nights in prayer without the need for sleep! I would like everyone I speak to or look at to convert! I would like to, but do I even know what? Therefore, nothing can fill my heart. I am convinced that this yearning of the heart, which arises from the awareness of the impossibility of realizing resolutions taken for the praise of God, has been a great torment for the saints.
(Diego José de Cádiz OFMCap. /1743–1801/, letter to the spiritual director F. X. González)
